So it's Thursday. I love today. Why? Because Once Upon A Time in WONDERLAND premiers AND it's Project Runway night. Not my favorite season, FYI, they should NOT have sent Kate home!
But. Here I am, literally writing a blog post because I would rather do anything than prepare for Bible study. I have not picked up my Bible in over a week (well technically I think my actual Bible is in storage so it's been way longer, so I use my phone, but you get the point) because it made me think of Bible Study. Our church recently began a women's weekly Bible Study where the ladies were divided into smaller groups and meet with those groups weekly to work though the same book. I was, naturally, assigned to the young ladies group. Yep, young married ladies. I have only made it to one meeting...ahem...tonight is week 4. In my defense I have had rehearsal (more on that later) the past two weeks, so while I wasn't exactly disappointed that I missed Bible study, I wasn't trying to avoid it!
So what is wrong with my Bible study, you ask?
The ladies are horrible? Judgey? Shallow? Nope. They all seem pretty lovely. Most of them (all except for two of us) are young mothers or mothers-to-be. Yeah, that part is hard, but more on that later!
So what is it? The curriculum is crap? No. I think it is actually a good study, though maybe a little bit basic, it is a foundational book. Worth reading, in my opinion. "Gospel Identity"
The drive? It's like, 15 minutes away.
The leaders? Adorable and Godly women who have walked the married lady road for longer than I have!
NO SNACKS? Wrong again. Excellent munchies.
So here are my top 5 reasons that I am avoiding Bible Study like the plague:
1. I am tired. It's legit. I'm not "I need a nap, I'm so tired from blah blah blah" tired. I'm "I need the Cat in the Hat to come and take care of the kids and clean the house and run my business and then maybe I will have the time/desire/energy for any type of social life" kind of tired. Talking to people and listening to their questions, concerns and complaints is what I do for a living and what I do in my free time. I have no desire to cultivate new friendships with people who, while very charming, are in such a different place in their lives than I am, that if we got beyond the basics, I am fairly certain we would need an interpreter.
2. I can't relate and that makes me uncomfortable. Anyone else? Anybody else out there a weirdo? Not like a rock lover or a vegetarian, but a broadway music fangirl who owns their own business or has a strained marriage. Does anyone share MY weirdness? Reality CHECK fangirl! Everyone is weird. And we all want to find people to share our weirdness so that we can have this magical connection called "relatability" or, in the dating world "compatibility." What does that mean? (By the way, yes I know I am typing approximately 4-5 question marks for every period. Oh well.) It means we desire to be affirmed by meeting other people who share our interests, hobbies, lifestyle choices, stage in life, experiences, etc and the more personal or more quirky the connection, the deeper and more compatible your friendship has the potential to become. No, I don't want to meet 100 me's. But honestly, I just don't see the point in wasting precious energy struggling to find that magical relatability with anyone in Bible study. No one is like me, so no one is worth giving a chance.
3. I hate wearing pants. I feel like that is a "'nuff said" kind of reason, but to elaborate, in case you are misunderstanding, I hate wearing pants. Literally. I hate jeans, leggings, dress and casual pants. I will tolerate a sweat pant or my Transformers pajama pants if necessary, but wearing actual clothes is just...well...grrrrrr. Also, allow me to clarify that I am not "too sexy for my...pants" by any means and the world would not want to see me pants less.
4. I think I'm still a little confused since Dad died. I know what I believe, but I am trying to move on and it's a little intimate to be squished into an hour session once a week between feedings and bedtimes for the mommy's.
5. I don't have a 5th reason. And even if I did, I don't have time to write it. Why, you may ask? Because it's 5:00 and I am going to be late. I have just enough time to go take off my Transformers pjs and put on big girl pants. I'm going to take a pen and my phone-Bible and I am going to drive to Bible study. I am going to read the Word and I am going to pray with and for the ladies in my group.
But I just said...
Yeah. I explained all of my reasons and to conclude, I am going to my Thursday night Bible study because Bible study is only the worst when it becomes bIble study. Did you see what I did there?
Love.
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